In life I believe that we all come to regret many of the decisions we have made.
I think it gets to a point where we become so afraid to make the "wrong decision", that we no longer venture into doing new things, or even letting there be a little bit of risk in our day to day lives.
I can't say that I'm not guilty of this because I certainly am, but not too long ago I had a small awakening. I suddenly became so aware of how much regret I felt, that I no longer let myself choose things just for the joy of wanting one thing over the other. I am known to be incredibly indecisive, and recently I've been wondering if that's due to fear of disapproval of others. When instead, I should start making decisions for my own well being.
I may not be perfect at it but I know that I do feel a lot better now that I don't fear the wrong choice, which most times there isn't even a wrong one. After spending so much time only paying focus to other people's needs, paying attention to mine feels more of a relief because I can only know what I am thinking, so why care what others think. They will think it anyway.
It wasn't until I started living for myself this past year that I found how to truly find yourself, and to find happiness. I no longer feel the need to stress about what other people might be seeing, and I'm a lot better at letting loose and breaking away from the controlling side of me. I'm also able to love better. My family, my friends, and everything in between.
A while ago I wrote how you need to be the best version of yourself in able to promote change in the world, something I still believe to be true. But I believe that in order to make yourself truly happy sometimes you need to go through some low points.
Through the hard times I learned what being miserable feels like, so whenever I don't feel that way I cherish the good things. In doing so I think I've learned how to really live my life. Even though it's not always perfect, there's nothing I'd rather be doing.
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